Today My Name is....Why?

HOT!!! LOVE Thursdays...always have. It used to be because Thursday meant CSI night, now it means horseback riding night and it's the day before Friday and Fridays are always great! Today it's especially wonderful because it's 26 degrees out which for the most part is equivalent to Calgary summers so it's like enjoying a great summer day.

Today was about sun, fun, I ordered Banff Gondola tickets which should be here soon. They won't be here in time for Mother's Day on Sunday which is too bad. I thought they might be print off ready but the voucher gets mailed. All good as we can plan to do more later. So I will re plan a date night for my hubs and I.

My #9 Marriage Challenge is, 'Imagine how it feels to be in your husbands shoes.'
I get up at the same time as him. Typically I am actually up before him now as my body is still somewhat in 4:30am yoga mood, so if he doesn't get up with his alarm I urge him to get up. He works long days as a shop foreman for a welding shop. On days like today it's ridiculously hot in the shop. I know this because he calls and complains. The coolest area then ends up being outside in the shade. Hot days take lots more out of him so he gets home wanting to relax in a cool room and often with a cold drink. I wish I could relate to where his head is at when I think of things like Mother's Day, Birthdays and anniversaries. I am the type to think ahead and plan special stuff. Men however I think have a one track mind, so beyond thinking about dinner and driving home to get dinner, thinking outside the box of stopping to get something is hard. My husband is not a planner, or a romantic. If he gets hockey tickets he tells me same day, if he has to go out of town for work he tells me at bed time that he will be out of town the next day. I often wonder how men's mind work. Women's are like a computer with 2036 windows open.

Day #9 of the List Challenge, 'Favorite Websites & Blogs'
-Facebook
-Instagram
-The Inspired Organizer
-Janet & Greta - Good Food, Good Health, Good Fun!
-Jamieleigh's Parrot Help
-Avian Organics
-A Life of Green - My Eclectus Parrot Blog
-Calgary's Very Own Bird Lady
-MLS.ca I love browsing through houses
-kijiji.ca where I find second hand furniture to give a face lift

I have a 9yr old Red Sided Male Eclectus parrot thus the multiple parrot websites and blogs. I am always researching information on diet, foraging and hormones in regards to the care and keeping of him. I started my own blog for him when my boy was hormonal - A Life of Green. I haven't been great at keeping it updated so maybe I should get on it. I love parrots, I love animals in general but I will say, a parrot is not a pet for a person who likes their house to be spotless, or quiet, or for the person who likes to travel. Much like a dog they need time out, to be fed 1 or more times and day and human interaction. Parrots cannot be left with dishes of food and water for long periods. My male Eclectus Viggo eats fresh fruits, veggies and sprouts which would all spoil and he eats more than once so when I want to go away I have a sitter we use and love. He's been like having a toddler in the house for 9 years.

3 of 4 of my dayhome kids napped today. It was a play hard day and the heat hit them all. So a quiet afternoon I enjoyed.

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~UPDATE~

I suck, plainly put. It's May 16th and I have not updated in days! Since last Friday I have struggled immensely. I wouldn't say I am down per say just, okay maybe I am. I have been happy and days have been good. I got news that one of my dear friends has been missing for almost one year and it's pretty much a cold case, no vehicle, no nadda. So very strange and out of character for the person she was. It saddened me deeply and has occupied my mind immensely. I have been in touch with her mother to offer support in any way I can. Our family's have always had a connection be it sports, school, death, birth, support we have always intertwined. My girlfriend was a pillar of support through my school years, her mother kept an open door and open arms. While we haven't been in touch in very recent years I think of her often.

At first I thought my guts rolling was the flu creeping up as one of the little ones I care for fell ill last Friday but as the weekend and now week has gone on I feel this sense of urgency and concern. I am sad to say that I have even smoked this week. In the past I have resorted back when I felt stress or loss and reached for my crutch. I was so positive, so motivated and determined that the fact I sparked up and have had a few feels as though I am failing me and only adds to my struggle. Additionally as an emotional eater I have crapped my weight watchers count. Life shouldn't stop because a stone falls in one's path but as a mother I feel sick for this family I cared for very much. My heart is shaken and trying to remain positive with hope.

I can't help but think and wonder why....I had a dream or a nightmare rather...sleep has been sparse...

I have done my list challenge as well as my marriage challenge but have struggled elsewhere. I have questioned why this is bothering me so and the only thing I can surmise is that in my younger years when I struggled and my life was in a crappy place my friend was there all the way and left foot prints on my heart. Now where ever she is she deserves that much from me.

I will update tomorrow with my lists in one long update post. For now it's catch up time. I have spent the last few days in the company of friends I am closest with and my family and have neglected grocery lists, banking and all the rest. So until tomorrow....

Today My Name is....Why?