Anyways, this thought....it got me thinking about redecorating....so I looked around and started imagining the changes. It's been a while since I've really done much around the house. I painted a wall red last summer. The thought all started with an idea about the girls bathroom and instead of getting a new shower curtain to replace the one they got make up all over, installing sliding glass doors instead. That got me considering paint color for the walls....and from there suddenly I was considering painting the bonus room an off white color and putting up white/grey curtains and hanging silver framed pictures of the family in black and white and adding a lovely painting to the back wall... I envision the room to be light and airy like this...
Suddenly I am pricing out glass shower doors, and then that night dragging the family to Home Depot to browse and have a look at various ideas. The thought keeps nagging and the olive walls of the bonus room I have always so loved since I painted them are sitting on the fence of consideration of being painted over....
I've always been an earthy person. Greens, blues, light neutral colors seem safe to me and natural and easy to work with. So that's what I've gone with. Vintage look, spirals, metals all attract me. I don't know what one would call the look in my house. It's not modern. Country vintage? In the past couple years I have felt somewhat brave in painting walls olive and red. Of course these are the only two brave paint steps I have taken. The girls rooms are brave choices...my youngest daughters room is pink and brown and my oldest daughters room is a two tone grey. With their rooms I can close the doors but these olive and red choices are in busy rooms of the house so the choices really stand out and make a statement.
So I question my mind now...is my mind swayed, has it been brain washed by all these contemporary modern choices and colors in decorating magazines? Should I bring the house up with the times? Do I stick with what I have because then it made sense and I liked it and still do? Neutrals have always just been me...the safe path to go down....perhaps the brave color statements were a moment of me trying to live on the edge?
Is this sudden feeling to re-paint my inner self trying to tell me that I feel more calm, less stress, when things around me are fresh, airy and clean looking? Perhaps? The fresh and clean goes hand in hand with my OCD of cleaning and keeping things tidy....maybe that's just me...trying to regain my roots and what appeals to me?
If I were to re-do the outside of our house I'd do it similar to this...and we just had the roof redone so it's already black. Pretty neutral eh? I like it though and the black adds that perfect touch.
So now here I am. I have done my monthly budgeting and feel slightly overwhelmed given other considerations coming to the table. I know what we need to do, what we need to book, that new costs will pop up and while it would be nice to paint and redecorate it almost seems ridiculous to consider it. Maybe next year. I have things I would really like to do and in order. Like develop the basement and new kitchen which would then mean new main floor flooring. That's all costly so painting walls can hold off until other things have been accomplished. Then I start to rethink things....paint is a cheap reno right...a quick way to update, refresh and recharge a room. Hmmmm.....but then again I have purchased and added decorations to the bonus room that would never work with off white walls...so they'd be useless...moved to storage, moved to collect dust...I like these things...Torn, my mind remains in limbo teetering between what is and what could be.
If my oldest moved her room to the basement I could re-do the old room to look something like this for guests! It sure would be a lovely space for my aunts to stay, or cousins or friends...
My kitchen would be something like....
Well....it will become a disagreement with my husband when it comes down to it. White or off white is a hard sell with him, but I have never liked the dark cabinetry that he likes. It looks nice, don't get me wrong, I like it, it looks nice in show homes and other peoples homes but the color is nothing I have ever personally wanted.
I wish I could keep my mind focused....and this is why I write lists! I am a dreamer though....and find that if I write lists I slowly see dreams becoming a reality because if I cross off the things we have to do we are then that much closer to doing what we would like to do.
Priority right? New tires for the Journey and truck, get a trailer, sell the tent trailer, develop the basement.....Oh and if we did develop the basement we'd surely need a book wall like this for my oldest daughter! She LOVES to read. Having easy access to books just outside her bedroom door like this would be perfect!
Oh and then just the other day I see an advertisement for super sale on beds and I start thinking about how to juggle priorities because it would be so nice to have a new King Size bed. Maybe we could do it for our birthdays? Bump something else for the time being? Damn budgets and braces....
Oh ADD!!! I wish I could win the lottery so I could cross stuff off fast and then just go with my ADD flow lol.
Things will in time unravel...come together...as the saying goes, "All good things come in time!" When they come, appreciation for them is right there too.
The waiting is what drives me mental...patience...I lack!
Well Today My Name is...ADD
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