Today My Name is...Wow

You know those wow moments? Well I have had a few over the past hmm...since I did the last post. You know the wow...shit I ate too much....WOW look at that weight today...wow I feel crappy...wow I need to do something...wow my life could be worse, I'm lucky and just wallowing....WOW

Ya just a ton of wows. I have been in a fairly decent place. Still not feeling myself, busy as always. Ringette parent party, did an early birthday for our youngest as we will be away on her actual birthday. Both the parent party and my daughters birthday went very well. My daughter has such wonderful friends, as do we, I couldn't have landed with better parents to share a season of ringette with.

My mother is super ill with pneumonia and I am super worried. Being that I am not 100% better myself I don't want to venture over and get her even sicker. Though she did say I should have brought her come coconut lime chicken last night. :( I will make it when she feels better. There's been a lot going on, kind of one of those whirl wind weeks, tornado's of sorts.

I got to a point where I was like slapped with a wake up...so I am counting points. Everything in moderation. So far so good. I am using an APP on my phone that tracks weight loss and shows milestones broken into 10 small achievable goals. That makes it possible when looking daily...steps right? So far so good but it's only been a few days. The damn Halloween chocolates are still in the house but only until tomorrow night...then after I have given it out I have to find will power to not raid or ask my girls for a treat. I look forward to tomorrow night and goods being gone. It's harder to munch from the kids loot.

I have been working on photo books...2 years done, working on a third. My Internet provider came out but did so on a day when I had NO issues...unreal. So the net is back to running slower again. I don't know what's worse...screwing around with changes again in modems ect or leaving things and hoping for a good connection? Hopefully I can get these books done before November. My brain is ready to scream at me as I try to strain to remember which pictures go where...

I haven't been reading like I had hoped to, but the plan is still there. I did do cross stitch one day in hopes of furthering myself in my orca cross stitch. I didn't make it far. :*( My arm pissed me off with a bad cramp and that just got me in a mood. It is frustrating to be reminded on a daily basis my limitations from the accident.

No Yoga. That's been the worst part. It had me feeling great and I need that now to continue with will and motivation. Still battling this cold and having evenings of not feeling great I haven't gone. I have one week left to cram in a few classes and try at least one hot class. I WILL DO IT!!

I also got a call this past week from my girlfriends mother. As I posted earlier my girlfriend Sara went missing. Well her mother called to tell me they found her van, just west of Wiaporous on the Morley Reserve. That was a big blow. Van found and belongings pretty much tells a grim tale. I was heart broken. Obviously an investigation is under going now, but my girlfriend has not been found. My heart hurts for her family, I cannot begin to imagine what her mother feels nor do I wish to. I hope to see her mother in the days to come to be there as a source of support.

11's have been constant through all of this and that is comforting. It reminds me of my grandmother and gives me a sense of peace. Even with everything I haven't binged on food or sparked up. When I have felt at my lowest in moments this week it has been then that I have seen Canadian Geese flying in their V...another strong sense my grandmother is with me. I know it sounds crazy but I like to think that she is though not in the physical sense.

I saw this tattoo and it reminded me of her, I love it and would like something relatively similar one day.

Plate feels a little full as I post this. Ya it's been a lot to take. I feel like if I can just manage counting points and feel better about my weight then I can grip and manage a few other things in life. Funny how when one sees themselves and feels good that things around them seem to work smoothly. I hope to feel that WOW...I feel good...WOW I can do anything...WOW look and what I wanted to do and did it!! I love seeing to do lists with crossed off items, and seeing big ticket items crossed it such a rush. When I do these I know I can do anything, therefore I feel more apt to doing bucket list items...

I still need to meet up with Dew Drop for the products I raved about looking forward to try. I haven't but as you see my plate has been full. I also don't want to get the owner ill as she herself is such a busy wonderful motivated driven woman and I would dislike being the person to hold her back.

Maybe one day I will actually finish my biggest task...to finish the book I have now been working on for hmm....like 10 years! I have written and re-written, edited, written from different points of view...dreamt about it...perhaps publishing it will come to fruition. Would be nice....now that would be a WOW moment.

Anyways it's been a real whirl wind. I look forward to Halloween tomorrow, the ghouls, goblins, my girls all dressed up out with their friends, happy kids dressed up and being free of the chocolate that sits in the box...me VS my will. ICK!

So Happy HALLOWEEN. Chat soon! Positive vibes that I am able to chill with will power.

Today My Name is...WOW!