Now let's cross our fingers that the men's team will do the same!
It's been a rough week and a bit since my hospital visit. I received great news that day and positivity should have stayed with me but for whatever reason I fell into a slump. I ate crap, more crap, had a drink or two...
There's that 11, 11:11, 1:11 always...
Every year after my hospital visit I know there are a few weeks where I am completely off. I'm down, stressed, bitchy...you name it. Stressing is what it is...worrying about what could be...so I put off following any positive path and delve into negatives and feel like crap, regret my choices and then hear good news from the doctor and return to positive paths. Why I do this I have no clue! I thought this year would be different, I was feeling absolutely better than I have (stomach wise) in ages so I assumed I would continue along the same path after.
I think it may have spawned from my scale...a liquid diet the day before the hospital and resulting in my scale showing 5lb gain was a hit I didn't expect. I assumed I would drop 5! Then even a few days after the scale still showed 5lb retention. I have always struggled with my weight...up and down...an emotional eater..I know that the 5lb on the scale was likely water retention but trying to convince my made up mind is another thing so I resort to okaying anything unhealthy because whatever I'm doing isn't working anyways...or so my mind tells me. I can't just walk hand in hand with patience.
So here I am feeling like crap for allowing this over and over and not using will power to press through it. I'm wondering at this point if I don't have a gluten allergy or intolerance or something. I was tested so time will tell. My call to the doctors office reported that results were received but no note was made to call me, which tells me that there's no rush or concern. I will follow up in another few weeks. Now what I have learned about myself is that when I eat a diet free of bread and pasta, cereals, pancakes ect...I tend to feel really very good, more energy, better overall. When I eat bread and the prior mentioned it's like a gate that opens and okays me to eat whatever! I get cravings then for more...and more and then I get bitchy! So I have to think food and diet really impact our lives and emotional well being.
So I am back to my whole juice in the morning, more vegetables during the day, counting points and watching what goes into my body! I can do this!! I am trying....and I am fighting to regain the will power and motivation that consumed me just days ago. Paths like this allow for one to Check Up so to speak on ourselves and rediscover why we are like we are and do as we do...It's a healthy moment when we Check Up on ourselves.
Got a steal of a deal on dog sweaters the other day which is awesome for our Kiedis who loves being warm. I think sweaters to him is another security much like having his crate.
On the positive side over the past few days I have gotten us organized in the financial department which has me feeling quite content especially as we consider our future and retirement one day. That's a real feel good and as far as sticking to my organization mode this fits right in!
Between my husband and I we also got the main floor half bath painted since my last post. I picked light colors, blue beachy hues to open the room up to appear larger. Painting is a huge challenge for me and I paid the day after, thus why updates have been put off. I try to live and still do things, but it's a challenge for sure.
In addition to updating the main floor bathroom my hubs also installed a shower door in the girls bathroom. We had been talking about the possibility of doing something like this since my teen girls have gotten make-up on the white shower curtain and it looks dingy no matter how often I wash and bleach it so I wanted to find something to solve the dirty looking shower curtain issue. These glass doors solve it perfect and add a really fabulous home upgrade! We lucked out and it felt like that lucky path remains for us as we got the doors for a steal of a price...$100 in savings!! Yay us! I like saving! That $100 went to new dark towels for the girls and paint! We're hoping now to get the girls bathroom painted before the end of the month as well. Painting has to be on weekends so that I have recovery time, but when ringette comes into the mix it's hard to find enough time lately. These two rooms are the only rooms we have not repainted since moving in 7ish years ago. Past due I'd say! This being a year of organization, catching up and home/life improvements it was time.
February has been nothing like January in terms of accomplishments and getting stuff done per say but it has been a learning curve and had it's share of highs, lows and a few much needed improvements. Little steps, little bits here and there always make a difference in the long run!!
I regret that I have not read more! I have not yet made it through one book this month. That said February has been insane with activity and our calender has been fuller than previous months so I have found little time to do extra things. We did manage to fit in dress shopping for my oldest daughters grade 9 grad and thankfully accomplished finding the perfect dress in a limited amount of time. It brought tears to my eyes! She looked stunning! I had to schedule dress shopping on the calender if you can believe it! It's months like this that some times I find our schedule a bit ridiculous. These are the life moments to enjoy and times spent together well worth cherishing. My girls are growing up so fast!!
We have been swamped with ringette daily and it's even gotten to my oldest. She never misses practices and games but the nightly ringette caught up and she was unable to finish school work so she had to pass up a practice. I shouldn't say she did, I made her. She had come home on Tuesday and got right to her homework, ate dinner then off to ringette across the city, returning home after 10pm to shower and hit the hay. Wednesday she worked diligently on the work at school, lunch and rushed home to continue in an attempt to finish before ringette again. I saw the stress on her face. She didn't have to say anything and I knew her audition for a High school program for today was weighing on her mind heavily so I made the call. She always feels as though she is letting her team down, but I assured her it was alright. So she got her assignment done and worked on and practiced her audition and feels confident yet nervous. I'm pleased with her feeling confident and nerves are a part of any tryout and audition and to be expected but she is prepared thanks to a good call in allowing for the time. I think mom may be more nervous. Fingers are crossed and counting down the hours now until audition time. Tomorrow there is ringette once again for 4 days, off for one and back at it. I love ringette as do the rest of us in the house but at times it does become a bit much.
The next few weeks will be much like the last. Come April however and spring we will welcome our trailer into our lives and some well deserved down time. I cannot wait! I am so looking forward to spring, snow melting, plants breaking through and returning after a long cold winter.
If no post follows for a bit be sure it is because I am struggling to keep my head above water and just get by...
Today My Name is...Check Up.
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