I woke up once again at 4:50am ready to take on the day, excited about another morning yoga. I managed to get dressed and ready and it wasn't until I went to brush my teeth that I felt the aching muscles. Ooooh no pain no gain right? How wonderful! I was estatic at 5am to feel so sore. I wondered if I would feel anything after getting home yesterday and my body feeling so good all day.
I made it once again on time, achy and wondering how I would again do the poses and hold them with sore muscles but was pleasantly surprised to hear we were going to do restorative yoga. LOVE IT!
Restorative Yoga was like waking up, going through passive stretching which felt so darned good and it was so calming. The calm mix of moves and peaceful atmosphere and sounds of nature playing had me feeling as though I had almost drifted through this class asleep. I felt very relaxed as it ended, not energized like the day before. I knew one thing, I was in love with everything about restorative yoga. I cannot wait for my next restorative.
I made it two days and have no concern at all making it through the rest of the month. I'm generally up at 6:30am Monday to Friday but being up at 4:50am and doing yoga before my day really begins leaves me feeling accomplished. It's a great way to start and I now wonder why the heck I didn't make this challenge years ago! It didn't even have to be morning yoga, just yoga in general. I am happy to report I have found something I can do and enjoy and benefit from outside of work, family and everyday hustle and bustle of insane family schedules.
I feel as though I have stumbled on who I have longed to be over the last 2 year struggle. I feel blessed and rewarded to have such positivity with me, and am thankful for the ongoing motivation that remains with me. I'm in Rebuild and working on the restorative work on myself, how perfect that today was a peaceful restorative session.
I have felt over the last two years as I stumbled into a clouded blur that I had lost sight of who I was, I was reaching and grasping but never gaining a solid hold and I now know why. I didn't belong, I was on the wrong path and so nothing was able to stick as it was not meant to be a part of me. I needed to heal myself as a whole, instead I pushed myself to do things that hurt and got me down. I would see limits, feel pain, feel failure, realize I was no longer able to do the same things as before. Negative thankfully reflected away instead of sinking in to leave permananent damage, allowing me to find the light to renew. I consumed myself with giving and I still do however I have now found that taking back and taking time for me is a positive charge and balance flows better. All I could do was give time to others around me as I attempted to be somewhat positive through my pain.
Everything happens for a reason. Mistakes happen so we can learn. For whatever reason we were in that car accident there has to be a reason. I think perhaps it was so we could open our eyes once again to really see things around us and get up out and do things, new things and experience beyond. Maybe to feel this determination, motivation, and accomplished, the final reward of learning through new experiences and rebuilding. I have to say I appreciate a lot more now. Life being #1...but also what we all have that we take for granted every day...our ability to walk, throw, see, hear. It could have been worse and I am thankful that it wasn't.
My day was not as busy as the previous. I took today to enjoy, spend time with my youngest while my oldest was on ice in Cochrane. I got house work done, other general house work. My oldest lost her first game of the tournament in a shoot out. She played the first period and at the half it was 3-1 for my daughters team. Another goalie played the second period and it ended 3-3 going to a shoot out where they lost. It is always so hard to lose like that, especially being a goalie. Now having a daughter who plays in net I have a much deeper respect for goalies and their emotions and the position in general. Wins and Loses weigh heavy on them and are taken personal.
My youngest daughter helped around the house and did some knitting. Both of my girls are very crafty and artistic. I worked on my blog and then had the inceling to search the web for Megan Blogs to see what else Megan's were blogging about and saw a few cool ones. One which really caught my eye was 30 Days of Lists. This 30 Days of Lists Megan is just like me!!!!! Seriously it was scarey haha. Like her I write lists constantly. I have apps to make lists, budget lists, grocery lists, to do lists, pinterest lists, meal plan lists....you name it. So this challenge totally appeals to me!
May I had blogged that I would do a 30 Day Marriage Challenge. I think I might add the 30 Days of Lists challenge too!
30 ideas that were posted for her Challenge in 2011. Click on the Lists to link back to the blog!
- A few things about yourself
- Things you are good at
- I am looking forward to ...
- Today's playlist
- Weekend Goals
- Least favorite words
- Blog goals
- In my bag
- Favorite websites and blogs
- On my wishlist
- Date night ideas
- Weekly rituals
- DIYs I want to try
- Things I love about _______
- On my shopping list
- Places to see in your town
- Words that are hard to spell
- Road trip must-haves
- Recipes I want to try
- Celebrity crushes
- Things to do this Spring
- Today I saw
- Guilty pleasures
- I make lists for
- Things I'd rather be doing right now
- Books I'd like to read this year
- Lessons learned
- Vacations to take
- Favorite foods
- Today's to-do list
There are so many wonderful ideas and they don't have to be made out to be a challenge. This 30 Days of Lists really helps a person think and learn a little about themselves. I might have my girls also do a challenge like this with me so we can share our answers. Wonderful way to connect...or even my girlfriends and get together at the end of the month to share and enjoy a nice visit and glass of vino?
My oldest just pointed out to me that Kurt Cobain died on this day. I pointed out to her that it was 19 years ago, I was 13 the day he died. My daughter is 13 today. Funny. Kurt Cobain was my dream crush and adorned every inch of my bedroom walls at 13. While my oldest shares similar taste in music she is not as taken with Kurt or his music, she likes Avenged Sevenfold (Ummm yum have to say M Shadows....super YUM!), she also likes Limp Bizkit or more specifically Wes Borland! <-- That is a band I grew up with, as is the Bloodhound Gang! Funny how we are so alike.
Kurt Cobain, Jim Morrison, Corey Haim, Brad Renfro, Johnathan Brandis....they all had special places on my wall...and now all have special places up in heaven. Each left far too early. I wonder why all the famous crush's I had died years later? Kurt Cobain took the cake though. He has also been the only man's name to ever adorn my skin. That was a little mistake I made and years later it has faded as has my crush for him but his music lives on. If only each of these troubled souls could see that life does get better, tomorrow is a new day....so much talent lost.
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